Heroine



[Reading] ➶ Heroine Author Mindy McGinnis – E17streets4all.co.uk A captivating and powerful exploration of the opioid crisis—the deadliest drug epidemic in American history—through the eyes of a collegebound softball star Edgar Awardwinning author Mindy McGinni A captivating and powerful exploration of the opioid crisis—the deadliest drug epidemic in American history—through the eyes of a collegebound softball star Edgar Awardwinning author Mindy McGinnis delivers a visceral and necessary novel about addiction, family, friendship, and hope When a car crash sidelines Mickey just before softball season, she has to find a way to hold on to her spot as the catcher for a team expected to make a historic tournament run Behind the plate is the only place she’s ever felt comfortable, and the painkillers she’s been prescribed can help her get thereThe pills do than take away pain; they make her feel goodWith a new circle of friends—fellow injured athletes, others with just time to kill—Mickey finds peaceful acceptance, and people with whom words come easily, even if it is just the pills loosening her tongueBut as the pressure to be Mickey Catalan heightens, her need increases, and it becomes less about pain and about want, something that could send her spiraling out of control.Heroine

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  • Audiobook
  • Heroine
  • Mindy McGinnis
  • 01 January 2019
  • 9780062886804

10 thoughts on “Heroine

  1. says:

    I am not a wasted person. I am not prowling the streets. I am not an addict. I am a girl spinning her locker combination. I am a girl who got a B on her math test. I am a girl who has two holes on the inside of her arm, but they do not tell the whole story of me.

    This book left me feeling hollow. By this I mean that it hit me so hard in so many different ways that I now feel emptied out. Saying it is sad is not enough. Horrifying is closer to the truth, but that seems too sensational.
    When I wake up, all my friends are dead.

    Heroine starts with ^this arresting sentence that grabbed my attention and made my jaw drop. Then it jumps back in time. The following build-up to the horror you know is coming is a quiet, introspective slippery slope. It's about a girl with a bright future, an accident, a harmless prescription that became not enough, just one more, denial, just two more, lying, more and more, stealing. All building up to the inevitable climax.

    The book comes with a trigger warning and recovering addicts should heed it. There are details about needles and the process of drug use, but also - and I think this is the most emotionally-challenging thing of all - a close look at the mental place Mickey finds herself in. It is very easy to understand how drugs become an attractive option to her, and how it escalates into an obsession, followed by lying to her family, her friends, and herself.

    McGinnis doesn't go easy on us. She does not sugarcoat the horrible lengths Mickey will go to for her next fix. The author is neither finger-wagging in her attitude to drugs, nor simplistic in the portrayal of Mickey herself. Though I found Mickey a highly sympathetic character, you can also see how she alienates those around her through her actions.

    I felt a little panicked as I followed Mickey on her downward spiral. This smart girl with a promising softball career ahead of her... seeing her life fall apart, piece by small piece, is terrifying. Her addiction steals her sense of morality, of right and wrong. The relief she feels over getting new pills eclipses any shame or guilt she might have otherwise felt.

    I also really appreciated all the nuanced relationships in the book. Mickey is adopted and her adoptive parents are divorced after her father had an affair. Now he is having a baby with his new wife and this causes complications between them all, but I think it is done very well. I especially liked the strange and begrudging mutual respect that grows between Mickey's mom and her dad's new wife, Devra. The friendships that are made and the ones that fall apart over the course of the novel are complex and feel real, too.

    Also, I'd just like to say that I really like how McGinnis constantly tries new things with her writing. She doesn't stick to trends, but instead writes unique and interesting stories. Few authors do this. Patrick Ness is another one. Of course this means her books can be hit and miss for me, but I really appreciate the attempt to go somewhere new.

    I highly recommend Heroine for contemporary fans who are in a good mental place.

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  2. says:

    Four addicted, compelling, tragic stars!
    Mindy McGinnis is one of the most amazing writers and storyteller, grabs your heart, steals a huge Parton it by creating her realistic, flawed, natural characters. As soon as you take back your heart, you feel like so many things, especially your perceptions about life, family, friends already change with it.

    The first few pages of the book like a ticking bomb about to explode! So you start to turn pages quickly to reach the spot at the beginning.

    At this book our heroine Mickey Catalan is a successful softball player. Playing is her life, her future, team members are her only friends so when you are at the risk of losing the thing that defines you perfectly, you do whatever it takes to keep it! When you think like that everything makes sense, right! But it isn’t!
    Because after her traffic accident, Mickey starts suffering from too many surgeries , her leg hurts! Every part of her body starts to betray her! So she finds the most harmful way to protect herself not to suffer more . She becomes a drug addict! Pills help her ease her inner psychological and physical pain,endure her parental issues, numbs her feelings, her aching leg. She does whatever it takes to hold her position at her team even it results with losing herself , selling her soul, happiness, her future to the drugs!!

    Mickey’s journey to the dark roads of her self destruction takes her so many dangerous places. McGinnis did a perfect job by telling her journey so objectively, you cannot judge her , despise or detest her. She is not flawless, she made so many bad choices and she knows how to differentiate right and wrong but she just choses the bad things and eventually she pays for her mistakes.

    This is not heart and flowers kinda book! It’s terrifying, depressing and blood freezing one, so this is not for everyone! If you’re ready to take a dark journey, face with the addiction issue with a fresh perspective and also ready to put aside your biased opinions about the drug addicts, this may be the right choice!

    At least, the bomb that I was expected to explode at the end was dismantled! Thanks to the writer, my heart rates turned to the normal. 😃

  3. says:

    This book was heavy, but SO good. Wow.

    TW: extremely realistic & descriptive drug use (anyone recovering from addiction should proceed with caution)

  4. says:

    When I wake up, all my friends are dead.

    This book is pain. You know what you're in for right from the start, the prologue makes sure of that. It all starts with pain medication after an accident. From there on, you will watch the main character bury herself in a grave of pills, needles, lies and betrayal, so deep she might never get out. 95% of the book is a downward spiral. And the things is, you just don't know if she can dig herself out again. If you have read a McGinnis novel before, you know it's entirely possible that the ending will only mean more pain. Or death. Both are legitimate possibilities.

    I'll be honest here: this is my least favourite of Mindy's books and I have a pretty good theory why that's so. I blame Mickey, the main character. She is a distant person, someone who only ever seems to know who she is when she is on the field playing softball - or when she is using. But when she isn't, she is a quiet person who doesn't know what to say or how to behave. Which I usually don't mind. Just because you're not an outgoing person, it doesn't mean you have nothing to say. But you see the world through Mickey's eyes and it all feels distant and too far away.

    I only really enjoyed the parts of the book where Mickey hangs out with her best friend, when the plot actually moves forward, when things are happening. Because that's the thing, nothing much happened apart from Mickey falling deeper and deeper into her drug addiction. Of course, that's the whole point of the book: to depict the reality of someone who relies on drugs, who becomes an addict, who doesn't (want to) see another way out. (This, of course, is not applicable to everyone. It only shows an example of what addiction can look like.) But that doesn't mean that the book has to be so devoid of colour. Because Mindy McGinnis can write breathtaking stories, she can construct the most fascinating characters. It showed in the prologue, it showed in the first few chapters, it showed in the last few chapters. But the pages in between couldn't hook me as much.

    I also need to add that I struggled to read some parts of the book, especially those that show the drug use in close detail. I just hate talk about needles and veins - it makes me feel sick. But that doesn't have any influence on my rating, I simply can't handle these things very well.

    My review shouldn't discourage you, though. If the blurb speaks to you and if you want to know more, read it. It's a tough book, and I'm sure it took a lot of effort to write it. I'm already anxiously waiting for Mindy's next book. I can't wait to hear what she's got up her sleeve.

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  5. says:

    4/14/19 - Upped my rating to 5 stars (from 4) because of how much this has stuck with me in the months since I read it. It's completely informed my perception of addiction portrayal in everything I've read since, and so far it's standing out as a favorite of the year.
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    This was uncomfortable to read and I hated what was happening at times, but I have been discussing this book with people I know who with addiction recovery, which has really helped me process my feelings and form a deep respect for this book. It portrays addiction and withdrawal brutally, but without reducing the character to a stereotype. I believe the intent is to humanize people with substance use disorders to people unfamiliar with addiction.

    Aside from how it handles the topic, I also really enjoyed the flow of the writing. I've read all of Mindy's books and while this isn't my favorite story, this has my favorite writing of her 3 contemporaries so far. It's easy to read and Mickey is a well developed character and you can really empathize with her hopes and worries.

    tw: The book starts with this warning: This book contains realistic depictions of opioid use. Recovered and recovering addicts should proceed with caution. PLEASE heed this warning. There is detailed use of pills, snorting, and needles. The drugs shown are Oxy and heroin. There is a car accident, injury, and brief hospitalization. There is also quite a bit of page time given to discussing poop, which felt appropriate due to the portrayal of withdrawal, but I know that's a squeamish thing for some.

    *An ARC was provided to me by the publisher. My opinions are my own.*

  6. says:

    I did not watch my friends die.
    I did not leave their bodies cooling in a basement.
    I am not an addict.




    Mel 🖤🐶🐺🐾

  7. says:

    I'm doing it so that my teammates aren't exchanging worried looks when I limp past them in the hallway. Yes, I manage to tell myself as I sink my teeth into a bread stick, I'm not taking Oxy because it makes me feel good.
    I'm taking it for other people.

    This is a matter of taste.

    This was marketed a bit as a suspense book and it really really isn't; it's more of a contemporary. At this point in my life, in terms of contemporary I look almost entirely for books I see as providing hope, some kind of catharsis and release. It is this, that for me, makes literature and television and movies and music so compelling: stories so worth coming back to, narrative so worth building my life around.

    Heroine contains a release of tension, yes, but it does not occur until the very end, until lead character Mickey has spiraled so far into an opiate addiction it's almost impossible to find a way out. This is not inherently damning to a book's objective value, but to my ability to appreciate the book, it was a kill shot.

    This book is the kind of thing I probably would have found compelling five years ago. Now, however, I found myself almost bored. This is a deeply important topic, but Go Ask Alice and every Ellen Hopkins book have already trod the ground of far-down spirals (albeit less well). I know how this story progresses and I know how this story ends - literally, given the prologue is the climactic scene. The character beats here in Mickey's life are compelling enough, but the spiral remains.

    That is not to say there is no value in portraying the opioid crisis in a new way - as a result of prescription drugs. Every day in the United States, over 130 people die of opioid overdoses. After pharmaceutical companies in the late 1990s denied that opioid prescription could lead to addiction, prescription skyrocketed; when the opposite was later proved true, the damage had already been done. Approximately 80% of heroin users, even today, were first prescribed opioids. This is a real public health crisis and it's important to tackle.

    And yet... I found myself wishing that the book were about the recovery process the end only suggests, about Mickey dealing with her issues with her parents and her stepmom and so many more. We know Mickey has issues, and Mindy McGinnis knows she has issues - that's not the problem. The problem is that the narrative is so focused on the downward spiral that it forgets to leave room for the healing, the catharsis. It is a twenty-page catharsis in exchange for 400 pages of drug abuse and three deaths. (This isn't a spoiler, as it's the opening scene.)

    Mindy McGinnis is an utterly wonderful author in terms of actual style, in terms of crafting a good sentence and tension and conflict. I've already adored her books The Female of the Species and This Darkness Mine. It's just that this book, as a whole, lacks a lot of actual content beyond the slow fall into addiction. And while it makes for a fast, dark read that left me breathless - please don't get me wrong, I read this in two sittings - that's just not what I want to read anymore.

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  8. says:

    Whoa, this book was intense!!! I wasn’t feeling this book at first, I was ready to give up on it. But it grew on me, it’s addictive, no pun intended. How quickly things got out of hand, the desperation and callousness was surreal. A very unique, well written story, kudos to the author.

  9. says:

    Review to come when my heart doesn't hurt so much.

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