[PDF / Epub] ☁ Clean Author Mia Kerick – High school senior Lanny Keating has it all A threesport athlete at Lauserville High School looking at a college football scholarship, with a supportive family, stellar grades, boy band good looks… High school senior Lanny Keating has it all A threesport athlete at Lauserville High School looking at a college football scholarship, with a supportive family, stellar grades, boy band good looks… until the fateful day when it all falls apartSeventeenyearold Trevor Ladd has always been a publicly declared zero and the high school badboy Abandoned by his mother and sexually abused by his legal guardian, Trevor sets his sights on mere survival Lanny seeks out Trevor’s companionship to avoid his shattered home life Unwilling to share their personal experiences of pain, the boys explore ways to escape, leading them into sexual experimentation, and the abuse of illegal drugs and alcohol Their mutual suffering creates a lasting bond of friendship and love When the time finally comes to get Clean and sober, or flunk out of high school, only one of the boys will graduate, while the other spirals downward into addiction Will Lanny and Trevor find the strength to battle their demons of mindaltering substances as well as emotional vulnerability?Clean takes the reader on a gritty trip into the real and raw world of teenage substance abuse.Clean

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    Clean Kindle ò Kindle Edition Their mutual suffering creates a lasting bond of friendship and love When the time finally comes to get Clean and sober, or flunk out of high school, only one of the boys will graduate, while the other spirals downward into addiction Will Lanny and Trevor find the strength to battle their demons of mindaltering substances as well as emotional vulnerability?Clean takes the reader on a gritty trip into the real and raw world of teenage substance abuse."/>
  • Kindle Edition
  • 242 pages
  • Clean
  • Mia Kerick
  • English
  • 11 October 2017

10 thoughts on “Clean

  1. says:

    4.25 stars

    The first half of this story was heartbreaking.

    Trevor is just getting by. He's using alcohol, drugs and Lanny, when he comes along, to help him forget about the abuse he suffers daily from his legal guardian. Lanny was once the golden boy, on his way to an athletic scholarship. Everything changes the day his sister is badly injured in an accident. His family falls apart under the grief and Lanny seeks solace in Trevor, the alcohol and the drugs.

    Soon Lanny's dreams start to fall through his fingers. Soon his need for the high replaces his need even to be with Trevor. He fully falls into addiction. Trevor, meanwhile, sees graduation as his only way out of his crappy life and starts to turn his life around one small step at a time.

    While the first half was heartbreaking, the second is hopeful. It's about recovering from addiction, re-building, helping each other and, for Trevor, finding a way to move past the abuse. Although Trevor and Lanny were physically together in the first half, they were really just using each other. In the second half they're more ready for each other and for love.

    I really enjoyed the writing style - duel first person POV with very distinctive voices for Trevor and Lanny. Reading it from their perspective made me understand more clearly why people end up in this sort of downward spiral. I also liked the unique structure of this story - the first half collapsing and the second half re-building. it's nice to read something just a little bit different than anything else out there.

    This had a fairly strong HFN ending but I would love to see a sequel with a true HEA. What I would love most is to have a sequel that doesn't put Lanny and Trevor through the wringer again. There's nothing wrong with low angst Ms Kerick!

  2. says:


    Clean by Mia Kerick is a gritty story of teenage substance abuse. Trevor and Lanny are both living their own private hells and seek solace by experimenting with drugs and sexual release.

    I have to admit I had a hard time with the first half of this book. Not because the writing was bad, but because it was just so freakin' sad. As someone who hated going home as a kid and making bad decisions in my late teens/early twenties- I found this book incredibly difficult to read at times. Reading their decline and hopelessness just made my heart hurt. I almost took a break to read a fluffy story and then come back to it. I couldn't do it, though- I had to see their story through. Luckily this book a hopeful turn at just past the 60% mark.


    At that point, their healing begins to take place. I love how Mia Kerick took her time through this part of the story- it needed to not be rushed and thankfully it wasn’t. We really get a sense of self growth and their healing felt real. I could tell there was research done when it came to the steps done in rehab. I also felt that it was well done that Trevor and Lanny didn’t (view spoiler)[immediately jump into a relationship when Lanny got out of rehab. (hide spoiler)]

  3. says:

    This is the first book I've read by this author and what a way to start. I was bowled over by the realness of this story.
    If your looking for a romantic sweet read then I suggest you skip this book.

    This is the raw and gritty story of two teenagers Lanny and Trevor. Due to an accident Lannys home life is messed up. He feels so alone at home and at school. Trevor has been abandoned by his mom and is abused by his legal guardian. They both end up together meddling and trying alcohol and drugs. This leads them both to self destruct. While one gets professional help the other struggles on.

    Can they move on and help each other to heal?

    The first half of the book is pretty gritty. We hear of what's going on in both their lives. The second half is about healing and forgiveness. I thought the author did a great job with this story as its not an easy subject to write about.

    As a mum I'd love for my kids to read this book. I think teenagers would learn so much from it. As I read this I felt the emotions as part of the story was real to me.

    I'll certainly be reading more of this authors books. Great read.

  4. says:

    Clean is a powerful book. If you are looking for a happy-go-lucky romance, this probably isn't going to satisfy that need. If you are looking for a book about an issue we all should be concerned with, this is that book. This is a story about two high school age young men, Lanny and Trevor, and how they are both affected by the use, abuse, and subsequent addiction to alcohol and drugs. This story is told from alternating view points and allows the reader to get into the head of someone who starts out using alcohol as a way to escape and ends up requiring the daily use of substances in order to function. Mia does a great job of not only showing us what the individual is going through while using, but she takes us deeper through recovery and family involvement. Ultimately this is a journey that Lanny and Trevor take you on and it is realistic and thought provoking. Never fear though, we get some romance and it ties the story together perfectly!

    Author Mia Kerrick is known for writing stories that are based on subjects other authors may avoid, Clean is the latest book of hers and it deals with a topic that is out of control, an issue that is facing epidemic proportions throughout the world and that is substance abuse including alcohol and drug use among teenagers and young adults. Let me be clear, although Mia's book is aimed at this age group..the issue of addiction and abuse is one that involves people from all age groups, all walks of life, all education is not an issue that is selective in who is involved..addiction will take anyone. I think Mia does an excellent job showing how easily it is to go from just wanting an escape for a day to needing and requiring the daily use of a substance to function and it is never the same for two people. Personally, as a Registered Nurse and as a Mom..I think all high school students would benefit from reading this book.

    I really don't want to say to much about the story itself, because I don't want to ruin it for anyone..I think this is something everyone should experience. Overall, I give Clean 5 stars!!

    ARC provided by author in exchange for an honest review. Reviewed by JLoves2read for Alpha Book Club and Gay Book Reviews.

  5. says:

    This is perhaps a bit explicit for true YA; it is also about intense subjects including sexual abuse and addiction, on page. So despite the age of the protagonists, I would recommend it only with caution to older teens.

    Lanny Keating had a great life and a good family, until the day his little sister was brain-injured in an accident. Since then, Lanny has been dealing with both his own guilt, and the degree to which her care has absorbed and overwhelmed his parents and him, until he seems to barely exist as a shadow around the edges of the life he once had.

    Trying to escape his pain and loss, guilty over feeling selfish when his sister is the one suffering, unable to talk to anyone about what he needs, Lanny turns to alcohol, to sex, and to drugs. Anything to make the hurt go away for a while. And his pipeline to all of those is Trevor, a guy he'd have passed over in his previous shiny jock life, but now his gateway drug to oblivion.

    Trevor has both admired and envied Lanny. He isn't sure why a gorgeous guy who seems to have everything is changing, willing to run off to a little shed with him and drink, and screw around. Trevor's home life is anything but pretty, and his time with Lanny is both solace and a way to remind himself that he is still in some kind of control. But alcohol isn't enough, and as much as he craves sex with Lanny, going very far feels too invasive. Trevor has limits, carved from the wreck of his daily life. But as drugs hit the scene, and Lanny spirals deeper into addiction, Trevor's ability to control anything begins to vanish.

    This is a dark, painful story about bad choices, about the inability to communicate, about young men failed by all the adults in their lives. It's also, at the end, a story about redeeming your bad choices. The resolution is hopeful, almost too much so given all that was thrown at these two guys from the start, but it does pull the story up into the light.

  6. says:

    This book is a very tough read, not because it's written poorly, but because it portrays unflinching stories of sexual abuse, neglect and substance abuse in teens.

    Landon was a great student and star athlete with everything going for him until his young sister was hit by a car. She survived, but with severe handicaps, and Lanny's family has become all about Joelle and her care. His overwhelmed and overwrought parents are angry and hostile, and don't even bother to acknowledge Lanny most days. Lanny and his parents share guilt and blame for the tragedy of Joelle's accident, and Lanny takes it super hard. He turns to alcohol to hide his pain, and he gets his alcohol from the school bad-boy, Trevor.

    Trevor is a burn out. He lives each day in fear, and resignation, of the continuing sexual abuse he's endured since he was twelve and his mother abandoned him with her friend, Carl. When he can, Trevor seeks oblivion via alcohol and pot. And Lanny, the angel-faced clean boy that sometimes lurks in Carl's gardening shed with him. When they are drunk, it's easy to seek other releases, and Trevor's easily able to direct some impersonal (non-penetrative) sex between them.

    Lanny feels like Trevor's the only person in his life who sees him. Trevor's too afraid to love anyone, and doesn't believe he's worthy of love, in any case. That said, he sees how far Lanny is slipping--he's been kicked off the football team, he's failing classes and he spends every night getting bombed. Soon they move on to pills, supplied by a mutual friend. Trevor knows his only way out of Carl's lecherous grasp is death, or cleaning up and graduating high school. He tries to get Lanny to clean out, too, but Lanny's not having it.

    Expect things to get worse. Expect there to be real terror on the pages, especially for Trevor when he discovers just how far gone Lanny is.

    This story is a story of redemption. It is an honest and harrowing tale of hitting rock bottom, and surviving. The first half is the descent, and the second half is the rise, and it's not an easy road on either side. Yet, it was told brilliantly, with Lanny rediscovering himself, and his family becoming a strong and supportive unit again. Lanny does what Trevor can't--forgive himself. And his recovery is well-defined in the general Twelve Step way. This may be a YA tale, but the truth of it applies to people at all ages and stages.

    It is also an M/M tale--a dash of romance. Lanny is definitely attracted to Trevor, and acknowledges that he is gay. Trevor was not sure of his orientation--he's not attracted to Carl in the least--but he does acknowledge that he's attracted to Lanny, and feels the most love for him that he has of any of the few people who've been in his life. There is some sexuality on the page--most consensual, some abuse. Both are told honestly and without glorification.

    Part of Lanny's recovery is making amends for his use and abuse of Trevor, who is dumbstruck that Lanny feels any need to apologize. Trevor's been mired in guilt over ever giving Lanny any substances to abuse in the first place. Lanny's steadfast determination to be a real friend to Trevor, not an escape, allows both boys to come to terms with the ills of their past. I adored how very healthy all of this was, and how it engendered a real and beneficial relationship.

    At no point did I feel there was any shortcut or glossing over of the tragedy and healing in this story. I think the writing was excellent, if unconventional. Trevor's POV pages are especially fraught with his fragmented internal narrative. He's contrary and cagey, and always looking to defend himself and his emotions by denying them. He's honest with Lanny about being a liar--having hidden so much of himself, never believing that anyone could (or would) want to help him--that he is dirty, filthy, unlovable and unwholesome because of his abuse. It made for a very poignant counterpoint to Lanny's squeaky-clean, but detached family.

    I always struggle to read books that feature abuse of a minor, because I'm a mom, and I hate that this happens IRL. Reading is my escape from MY everyday problems, in many cases, so I prefer the lighter fare. That said, an intense read like CLEAN serves a very important purpose in highlighting the experiences of people who are very different, and often very troubled. CLEAN is fantastic. I hope that it finds readers who have the courage, like Lanny and Trevor, to be present and be counted. To not give up, and to do the hard work necessary to do better than just survive the experience.

    Lanny and Trevor discover that life is hard, but very very worth it.

  7. says:

    if you aren't into angst and troubled teenagers, this book definitely won't be for you. This took me a little while to get into ,but once I did I couldn't put it down. If this book wasn't so slow for me in the beginning, I would have given it a 4.5 or 5.

    I think this book will have a lot of mixed reviews. Either people will love it or not like it at all.

  8. says:

    “I look at his face to see if he’s judging us because of the whole gay thing but he smiles and I know he’s cool with whoever I wanna love.”

    5 beautiful stars!!! Mia Kerick knows how to take delicate subjects and make a beautiful story!! It’s gripping, heartbreaking and so beautiful!!

    Trevor and Landon are both high school seniors dealing with their own family problems. Landon’s parents barely notice he’s around and Trevor lives with his abusive stepdad. So what’s a young boy do when he has no one? They both turn to drugs to take away the pain and escape their lives. Landon is the all star football player, who seems like he comes from the perfect family. You’d never think Trevor and Landon would cross paths, but they find each other and find solace in each other’s company.

    This beautiful book is so well written, it touches on subjects that might be too much for some. But there’s a powerful messaage in this book! I fell in love with both of these characters and I wanted to reach in and just hug them both!! Mia Kerick is a stellar author and knows how to write a book with a powerful punch!! If you haven’t read this book yet, I suggest you do so now.


    ARC provided by author in exchange for an honest review. Reviewed by Melissa from Alpha Book Club

  9. says:

    I received a free ebook copy in exchange for an honest review.

    When I first started Clean, my expectations weren't too high. And I thought the beginning was a little unimpressive. But holy shit, it got better and better as the story progressed. It was so worth the read.

    This is a super slow burn romance, and that's what makes it so beautiful. At first, Lanny and Trevor are just fooling around, but they slowly become friends and later that blooms into love. ZOMG, THE FEELS. Oh, the feels *squeals like a fangirl*. This was a super sweet love story.

    The romance isn't the only part of the story, though. I appreciate how Lanny's struggle with addiction wasn't glossed over or used for drama. It was handled with tact and care by the author. And I also thought it was really inspiring how Lanny was able to overcome that, with the support of his family and friends.

    I'm not sure how I feel about the subplot of Trevor's abuse. It wasn't used as a shock tactic at all, and I am relieved about that, but I have a small feeling maybe that storyline wasn't as developed as it could have been.

    Also, to whom it may concern: There is a typo on page 278 . Lanny's name is used in place of Trevor's, which was an extremely confusing moment... So..I hope that gets fixed. This typo was only in the arc version, so all's well that ends well :)

    Tl;dr- Other than a few small things ^^, I really enjoyed this and I highly recommend it. It's a really sweet story.

  10. says:

    This book is about two teenage boys in high school their senior year who both have a lot going on in their life. Landon has parents who barely acknowledge him and Trevor has his step dad who hurts him horribly.
    They both turn to drinking then later drugs until one of them almost loses his life. This story was so sad at times and positive too with the way they both help each other in the end. There also might be parts that will be hard for some to read with what Carl Trevor's step dad had done to him. So all together this story is about what two boys go through in high school, how they sink to a very low point in their life and how they climb above it and get to a better place. Also how family who may not have been there for you before sometimes needs a kick in the butt to realize were they are going wrong. I liked how the author portrayed these characters and their struggles to go down a better road then where they were headed before.

    All together I liked this book!
    I received this book free in exchange for an honest review from Inked Rainbow Reads.

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